I just need a space to rant...

18!

2007-03-10T07:22:00.000+08:00

i am finally updating my blog after leaving it stagnant for months... i can see the moss growing on it... anyway, today is 10th march, the day a great person is born... I AM 18! oh god, am i old or what? finally, i can officially club, watch m18 without feeling guilty, and best of all, buy 4D! many thanks to all my buddies from 07S03S for all the presents... zhang fan, elysa, lisa, sarah, marie, daphne, you people rock... i will remember you for life :D and a big sorry to team terror... melvin, isaa, wei quan, i did not mean to give you all such a big kick, but i was just trying to protect myself from getting stripped :p no hard feelings eh... especially to isaac and melvin, hope i din burst your stomach or kidney... :( thanks mum for the hong bao, that will be enough for me to go party tonight with my sec4 friends... cant wait to see my baby in a while... any presents or surprises for me? anyway, signing off now, give me a number to buy for 4D :D

shitty

2006-12-18T23:05:00.000+08:00

at this very present moment, i am feeling kinda crappy but i do not know how to describe it... many things are just going through my mind, and it's just making me feel kinda weird and saddened... just came back from work, lousy weather today, and the rain just doesn't help in lifting my mood... finally told helen i am quitting work at the end of this week... time sure flies... it has been a year since i started work at Vientai... jennifer, crystal, cari, alan, these are just some of the old names that i have gotten familiar with but everyone just left one by one... really reluctant to quit, to say good bye to ernest, aunty jenny, da ge(big brother), helen... oh well, Alevels next year and i really need to concentrate... the pay isn't that fantastic either for me to compromise on my studies... and Dan is leaving tomorrow... the very first cook to talk to me, the only person at work who shares my passion in manchester united, i am gonna miss him... shall get him something tomorrow for xmas before he leave... all these characters whom i have encountered, are they going to stay or they will just disappear with time? will the place still be the same another 6 months down the road? i never know leaving was so depressing... no one to tell all these thoughts too, the only person i confide with is out, all these thoughts are killing me... now i kinda understand how eden feels... lonely... blue... get me a few shots to numb my mind, to knock me out...

long

2006-12-17T07:31:00.000+08:00

ok, so i confess i have been too lazy to blog and as a result, this blog has been stagnant... my bad, will santa still give me presents? =/ anyway this holiday has been pretty boring for me i guess... just working like crazy just to earn money for xmas shopping and buying a new ipod, nothing much has happened... had lots of bust up with my mum, because she's being an idiot, went out with stace, catch up abit with old friends, going on dungeons and raids on WoW, and just working my ass off... suddenly i realised that i only have two weeks left and i haven done any holiday homework yet... don't even know what's to be done and the moment i see any GP email, i mass delete it... (pray hard Miss Soh is not reading this) i am thinking of quitting work at the end of this year, don't wanna work anymore during weekends because i wanna mug for As... ernest is asking me to stay, trying to increase my pay to let me work but should i? work is getting fucked up, i am getting paid the same as a whole lot bunch of jokers who do not do shit but just sit around and crap... and big deal, a fifty cents increase is nothing to be happy about... so yea, shall just continue to think about it and if i really do quit, this week will be my last week... gonna miss lotsa people... friendships have been forged for a year and i am gonna miss them... and i cant believe time is passing so fast, christmas is in a week, and i haven completed my shopping... so shall work hard over this week to finish it and meet up with a few people to pass them the presents and catch up on old times... and it's sure nice seeing amanda(stace's sis) back from the states... kinda sad eden din come back as well... so yea, off to have breakfast with them now at the american club... feel kinda bad that mr and mrs kelly keep on inviting me over for meals and stuff... they are real nice people... so until next time, this shall conclude my long post...

fuck it

2006-11-02T22:05:00.000+08:00

mood: fucked up
apathy, i dun give a shit...
this fucking sucks... give me a fucking break...
*slash wrist*
numb...

psi

2006-10-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

ok, i seem to be blogging once every week nowadays so this shall be a long post... feeling kinda shitty now from all the coughing and stuff due to the haze... PSI has been like crap so stop burning all the shit... anyway post promo life has been pretty boring and stagnant... kind of wishing we are having normal lessons and stuff now... feel weird saying this but it's true... spent today playing cards, singing, talking cock and just doing nothing... the highlight would be the macritchie outing i guess... people complained and grumbled but the sight of mr chan in his baby blue shirt and shorts and so excited just lifted everyone's mood... pondskaters, fish, tortoise on rock(we tried to hit them down but all missed), weird plants with ants in them, monkeys(KEK), and ant paths, these are some of the fun stuff... wish the walk was longer though... went back with zhang fan after that, (you shouldn't even be in school, should be resting at home) crap all the way back to bedok, where we went to the library to get some books... "Five people you meet in heaven" by mitch albom, this is one book which i am desperately trying to find but couldn't... sorry but shall find it for you next time then... and thanks for introducing the dumpling to me... kinda tasty eh... shall treat you to more next time... :D
signing off now then, got to work tomorrow... :(

results

2006-10-16T19:27:00.000+08:00

finally updating my stagnant blog for a week... was back in school today for the first time in 2 weeks... really nice seeing everyone, and floorball with team terror owns! got back a few subjects today... showed ben tan the A that i promised him... flunk southeast asia history like shit, hope my international can pull it up... got 53% for bio, sorry chan sensei, din get the A, but at least there's a big improvement... getting back the results tomorrow... basically, i got lots of stuff to blog, just not in the mood to, so shall keep my post short... went back with the same people after school, excluding sarah, and zhang fan had to go to the bishan library... -.- explored the kids section, which is freaking embarrassing so i shall not talk about it... off to wow now...

food poisoning

2006-10-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

so here i am, staying at home while everyone is in school because of some fucking food poisoning... stupid prata stall downstairs, i am gonna sue uall man... feeling pretty down now at the moment because i should be in school now, rejoining team terror for pe later but alas, it's not meant to be... vomited like 8 times the whole night, body losing so much water i thought i was going to die, and i have never felt so weak before... mum brought me to polyclinic this morning and there was this freaking long queue... it's quite a sight seeing those old uncles and aunties at the clinic, because they do the weirdest thing... this particular auntie brought her passport to the clinic, and this uncle came to counter 1 when the number on the board reads counter 7... oh well, that's beside the point... i realised that ever since i entered secondary school, whenever i went out with my mum, i have stopped holding her hands like what i did when i was young... today, for the first time in many years, my mum held my hand as we walked to the clinic because i was very weak and she was worried i was going to fall or something... don't know why but just feel this warmth in me... thanks mum... you are the best! :D

lazy

2006-10-06T07:57:00.000+08:00

ok, i have been feeling lazy for the past few days to blog... post promos, it's just going out and wowing, everytime i try to blog, i would turn to wow instead... this is going to be a really short post, no surprise, guess wad am i going to do now? don't blame me... it's just wow... sighz... have to work tonight... no choice la, have to earn money to buy the expansion in november and to save up for a new ipod... >.<

p.s. that's toughhide the paladin by the way... he's hogging my attention... sorry people... :p

exam's over....

2006-10-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

ok, the first day of freedom... i would say it sure feels funny... no mugging, no concern for schoolwork, just hardcore play... i feel kinda uneasy... just had a 11 hour wow marathon, woke up at 7, played till now, server shutting down so i gotta stop, or else i would have played till midnight... din't feel like going out today, so here i am, stuck at home... yesterday's class outing was really sad... sighz... think our class is cursed or something... shaun, melvin, nicole and i splitted up to watch "stay alive" at lido, the rest went to cine for "john tucker"... sorry people... we just dun feel like watching that show... well, it was pretty fun, i din't realise nicole can eat so much... omg... :p and you people should have been there yesterday to see shaun... should have taken a photo of him covering his eyes and all curled up in his seat when the freaky part comes... :D oh well... another day then... off for dinner now, can't wow anymore for today... tomorrow will be going out with my baby, sorry for neglecting you... :( new double decker bed for me today... wee!

sigh

2006-09-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

sad gloomy saturday... why am i spending a rainy saturday evening mugging when i can be wowing or sleeping??? oh well... managed to waste my saturday away again without much mugging done... my bio is so dead... wtf is chi square formula??? damnit... well, spent the morning and afternoon with my baby, downloaded episode 1-30 of bleach, n was watching it... i swear i am in love with that anime... just came back from sending stace home cause she wasn't feeling well... rest well yea? so now, just blogging after dinner before i go back to hardcore mugging mode again... cant wait for monday to be over, gonna reactivate my wow account, watch bleach, and shall never touch a book or a pen... stupid school work... here's the coolest guy in the anime, ichigo... i love that sword... sighz... back to mugging now... school sucks...

bored...

2006-09-29T08:25:00.000+08:00

ok, din't manage to blog yesterday cause blogger was lagging and i wasted the whole day away... spent the whole morning playing, and intending to do some work at night... guess it's not meant to be, ivan called me at 3 to ask me to go work as he din't have enough people... knowing me as a nice guy, how can i possibly turn down his plea? so yea, went to work, saw some fucked up bitch's attitude at work, helped ivan fixed his computer... thank you baby for coming down to pick me up(even though i have to send you home after that :p) anyway up early in the morning, intending to get some work done after this... people having physics today, good luck... after this, its the last paper... so yea, going to play a bit now, then shall go mug... bio sucks... by the way, just some stupid pictures i found when i wasted my whole morning away yesterday... enjoy... :D

last paper!!!

2006-09-27T20:22:00.000+08:00

countdown to liberation: bio left!!!
omg... i can feel the adrenaline pumping in my blood... after all the shitty revision, finally promos is going to be over... bio left on monday, and i am in the holiday mood now... today math was kind of easier than i thought*sorry sarah, din't mean to be so insensitive :(* as for history i am probably screwed... finished with 1 hour left and i went to sleep... zzz... hopefully i can scrap a S... anyway for people mugging physics and chemistry, good luck yea! don't feel jealous that we have four days to mug bio... anyway, here's something interesting that stacey showed me... go check it out people... http://www.ultimateshowdown.org/ lmao...

economics

2006-09-26T13:21:00.000+08:00

Countdown to liberation: 3 more papers
finally! got the bloody economics out of the way... today's paper was kind of easy, or is it just me? might be able to get a decent grade, hopefully a B... well, compared to 19% in mid year, this is a big achievement... vadi, hope you are reading this... you will be proud of me! :D and the short case study, is it oligopoly or MPC? people reading this please tag answer on my board, i want to make myself feel more at ease... anyway now to mug history and math, my history is screwed... and man utd playing benfica tonight, should i watch it? :( 3 more papers, people... just get this damn thing over n done with... anyway, just something random... it kind of strucks me that pimples are starting to appear on everyone's face... must be all the stress and shit... can see all these red dots on everyone's faces *wink to zhangfan* so yea... just some random thoughts... use pimple cream people...

general paper

2006-09-25T15:07:00.000+08:00

countdown to liberation: 4 papers left
at the moment, stuck in front of my computer, don't have the intention to start studying for economics yet... today's general paper was pretty decent, except the comprehension which was kind of crappy and din't even make sense at all... should scientific research be dictated by ethical concerns? that was my essay question... no doubt, it should... pretty interesting phrase by martin luther king jr: our scientific power has overshot our spiritual power; we have guided missile and misguided man. is this really the problem? something to think about... oh well... got to get myself into the pile of economic notes now... tomorrow's paper will be the deciding moment for me... 19% wasn't exactly a fantastic result in CT1 so would i be able to change it to 91% instead? go johnny! i can do it! zzz....

revival after 2 years

2006-09-24T09:44:00.000+08:00

finally, after two years of telling myself i hate blogging and the self denial of looking at my old blog, boredom and desperation finally make me create a new blog to post all my shit and random thoughts... i just need a space to shout, a space to grumble and a space to release all the emotions in me, and this coming promo finally triggered it off... sitting in bed with a huge stack of history notes and contemplating my future, i am deciding what to do should i get retained... i don't wanna get retained, but revision is driving me nuts... promos is tomorrow and i still don't know any shit for history... at the moment, should apathy be the word to describe my mood? i feel like i just want to give it up, just chuck all my notes away and just fuck it, "i don't give a shit about promos!" i can't bring myself to do it, after getting to this stage, its too big a loss to make... "bear with it" "hang in there" that's what i have been hearing from my friends but if everybody has been saying these lines to each other, why would the chap commit suicide? oh well... i shall just get back to my pile of notes and suffocate myself, choke myself with all the informations and just get this damn promos over and done with... hey people, re-link me for your blogs ok? i just feel like i should start blogging again...